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Wrapping Things Up

There are three weeks left in our Fall semester. I have spent a good deal of time this past weekend pondering what to include and what to jettison from my overall semester lesson plan for my classes.

This morning I met with a research student that I see weekly; we have two meetings left after today as I reminded him; that took him aback.

I have goals for committees that I lead for this term; there is not much time left to bring that work to some form of conclusion before the holidays.

One of the things that I like about academia is that there is a rhythm to it, peak periods and slack periods with a sense of direction.

It is daunting to see retirement in less than a decade in the same light as the above. There are things about my career that I need to start jettisoning so that I can focus more on others. Deciding what I value not at the moment but in the long run is daunting, but I've always had a set of process goals that I've applied to the different and often unpredictable opportunities that have come my way.

I may write more about the details of that prioritization but I will need to spend time staring into space, and then time talking with folk willing to actively listen to me before I can start a written draft.

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